Why can't I just be content?
You can't be truly happy when you are in two places at once.
Why can’t I just be content?
This is the question I asked my wife last week and several times over the course of the last year.
Why can’t I be happy with what I have? Why can’t I seem to enjoy what I have? Why does it seem like everyone else has what they want? Why not me?
Why won’t you give me what I want? Why is this so hard?
It sounds petty as I read it on the page. Honestly, I would half expect this line of questioning to come from a teenager or a 20-something who grew up with an iPhone in their hand (no offense to 20-somethings - the 20s are for figuring out what you actually want!). I would expect my kids to ask these kinds of questions when they spot a conveniently placed Pokémon plushy in the aisle of the grocery store. I would expect a middle-school kid to have a hard time when they don’t get what they think they want.
But that’s not me. I’m 34 years old. I’m a spiritual director and serve on the lead team for a non-profit. I am married to a beautiful woman, and I have two incredi…
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